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Thinking and dying
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I'm dying slowly right now... My heart achs so much... It hurts... Alot... I feel so dead inside... I hate love... It always does this to me... It always takes things away from me... It'll intrduce me to something then let the time pass till I love it... After it'll take it away making my heart shatter into pieces... Now it's as black as it use to be don't expect me to be me from now on...
I'm thinking of leaving this site too... I might as well join the gang of friends who left and are leaving me! Don't try and help me chose it's my choice and if I can't leave then I'm nothing more then a coward... A chicken... So just... I feel so dead I feel like this:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=3soskk…
And this:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=yGEduk…
And this:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGrM1s…
And much more....
I'm thinking of leaving this site too... I might as well join the gang of friends who left and are leaving me! Don't try and help me chose it's my choice and if I can't leave then I'm nothing more then a coward... A chicken... So just... I feel so dead I feel like this:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=3soskk…
And this:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=yGEduk…
And this:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGrM1s…
And much more....
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Hey guys...
2 min read
Hey I just want to inform all of you I will not be on as much for a few days. So I am putting for now a pause on drawing to consentrate on my homework and studies. I don't want if or buts though so just go with it. I've been feeling VERY down and do NOT feel like drawing or doing anything. I want to lay down and relax but I can't. Homework right now is like a baby. You lie down for 2 minutes after playing with it and it comes back holding dolls and wants to play again and won't stop beging till it gets what it wants. So I am sorry to all of my friends on dA if I am not on and they are expecting me. -_-
Also :iconsupersonicspeedriderplz: I can not finish the Silvaze pic sorry I'm to busy I'm almost finished coloring it but it's gonna take a LONG time my appoligize.
And also things on dA have been... Difficult... I don't want to talk about it...
I am sorry to all of you. Especially to the clubs/groups I'm in that I haven't posted anything in a while... I have Shadamy pics ready and almost down my chaos emerald high pic too. But I will keep it on pause sorry...
Now I`m going to go back to crying and doing my english project bey for now...
Also :iconsupersonicspeedriderplz: I can not finish the Silvaze pic sorry I'm to busy I'm almost finished coloring it but it's gonna take a LONG time my appoligize.
And also things on dA have been... Difficult... I don't want to talk about it...
I am sorry to all of you. Especially to the clubs/groups I'm in that I haven't posted anything in a while... I have Shadamy pics ready and almost down my chaos emerald high pic too. But I will keep it on pause sorry...
Now I`m going to go back to crying and doing my english project bey for now...
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Devious Journal Entry
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You'll never guess what killed my Internet on Saturday we found out why it wasn't working!!! A SQUIRLE at the ELECTRIC WIRES OUTSIDE on the posts!!! WTF?!?!?!?! 
So ya no body thank god the squirle's okay. 
But still imagne an electriction tell you that. What the heck?...... So yeah it's working again! 
For now... 
So ya no body thank god the squirle's okay. But still imagne an electriction tell you that. What the heck?...... So yeah it's working again! For now...
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Name game? COOL!!!
2 min read
Okay I'm REALLY bored right now so um... Yeah... O_O Got this idea from 
1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Nicky
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Nicizzle (Um... That makes no sens!
)
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Red Tiger. (um... That is SO awesome.
)
4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Papni. (My the force be with you young Papni.
)
5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Blue smoothie. (BLUE SMOOTHIE AWAY!
)
6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Ipnikykis (...... This makes NO sens at all! )
7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
Lina Koaly (Yeeeeaaaaahhhh.... Riiiiiiggggghhhhhhtttttt...... )
8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Goldy.
9. NINJA NAME: (First two letters of your first name added with Ruto)
Niruto. XP (It almost sounds like Naruto NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
)
10. PIRATE NAME: (Your middle name after the word Captain)
Captain Nini.
Yup... THAT WAS AWESOME.
1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Nicky
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Nicizzle (Um... That makes no sens!
)3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Red Tiger. (um... That is SO awesome.
)4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Papni. (My the force be with you young Papni.
)5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Blue smoothie. (BLUE SMOOTHIE AWAY!
)6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Ipnikykis (...... This makes NO sens at all!
)7. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
Lina Koaly (Yeeeeaaaaahhhh.... Riiiiiiggggghhhhhhtttttt......
)8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Goldy.
9. NINJA NAME: (First two letters of your first name added with Ruto)
Niruto. XP (It almost sounds like Naruto NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
)10. PIRATE NAME: (Your middle name after the word Captain)
Captain Nini.
Yup... THAT WAS AWESOME.
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Day off today and fun!
8 min read
Well I have a day off today from school so YAY! Anyway I just really want to say thank you to a really awesome person that I know here on DA. :iconcuteblushpz: And also since I have some time on my hands I decided to do this! 
I got this idea from 
1. Hi! What Is You'r Name?
Amber: Amber at your survice.
Christine: What's my name? Name's Christine... Christine Jem Junioroupolis.
Angel: Well... My name's Angelina Demonio. But just call me Angel and go easy on me with the questions please I've never done this before.
2. You'r Age?
Amber: I am 24 but I have the appearance of a 15 year old. ^^
Christine: Same as my sis I look 15 but I'm actually 24.
Angel: Well I'll be honest I'm only 23. >_>
3. Fav Color?
Amber: Magenta or yellow really. ^^
Christine: Um I don't know.
Love red but also blue like a emerald blue thing.
Angel: I love the color blood red.
Not because I'm a demon and stuff but yeah I just love it.
4. Favorite Food And Drink?
Amber: I prefer light things really like a salad or a sandwich. ^^ As drink I really like tea or lemonade.
Christine: I'm not picky when it comes to food! I can eat anything really. But when it comes to drinks... I love smoothies. O_O MY SMOOTHIE!!!! 
Angel: Um... I prefer things like you now a steak or something I'm a meat lover what can I say. But I really like cherries... And I drink blood sometimes got that from my mom. >.>" But other then that I love drinking punch or like a cappuccino in the morning.
5. Who Is You'r Crush?
Amber: I will always belong to Conrade my lovable idiotic lover!
Even if some people tease me saying I like Atrios! 
Angel: Only cause it's true.
Well I've always been in love with a man named Damian. 
Love you hun!
Christine: No shit Sherlock I do! But I won't say the name... He already knows who he is don't ya darlin'?
6. If You Had One, Did You Kiss Yet?
Amber: Yes I have. And I honestly will NEVER regret it it was magical.
Christine: Well let me think um... YES I HAVE!
Angel: Actually I can say yes... Yes I have!
It feels good to say that really. 
7. You'r Hobbies?
Amber: Um... Reading and practicing my spells of course.
Angel: Bookworm.
Amber: HEY!!!
Angel: What it's true surprised you don't have a blister in your brain.
Amber: DO NOT PUSH YOUR LUCK YOU S....!!!
Christine: Whoa there you two!!! Anyway my hobby is playing on my guitar, training, walking around... Stuff like that. Or beat up some enemies and get into fights.
Angel: My hobby is sight seeing, training, killing demons... stuff like that. ^^
8. Who Are You'r Friends?
Amber: Um not many I guess. Never really make to many friends.
Christine: Well I make friends. I have a few actually.
Angel: My squad, Conrade... People that I know and trust.
9. Fav Weather?
Amber: Um... I like cloudy sunny mixed days.
Christine: Rainy, snowy, and sunny days.
Angel: I'd guess during a sunny day or a heat wave. It's hot then I like that. ^^
10. What Season Do You Prefer?
Amber: Spring and fall.
Christine: Winter and fall.
Angel: Summer.
11. You'r Biggest Fears?
Amber: I have no fear I was raised to have no fear... And no heart... Learnt to have a heart later on.
Christine: Pffff!!!! Fear is what cause I have none.
Angel: I fear one thing.... But I won't say it...
12. Any People You Don't Like?
Amber: I hate many people but the one person I despise is Giovanni...
Christine: Um... Listen I have to much of a big list so just skip me. -_-
Angel: My ruler and many more....
13. Do You Like Cute Things/People?
Amber: I love animals and creatures they are so adorable. But the one thing that was the most cute thing I ever saw was my... No... I will not speak about it.
Christine: I think animals are cute. Especially pups. But the cutest thing to my eyes is my daughter.
Angel: Um... I think Cerberus are cute. ^^ You know that big hound with three heads? Yeah that.
14. A Compliment You Get To Hear Often?
Amber: Um... Well people usually say "you must be an angel" or "you have beautiful bright eyes and things like that.
Christine: Well I get compliments like "you're the greatest" or "you're a gorgeous hero" or "I wish I were like you." Yup. Things people say to any hero really.
Angel: I get compliments that make me want to slap guys... Like "how's about you come over to my place after we get a few drinks" or "hey sweet thing I couldn't help but notice how strong you are I guess that means you don't get tired to easily." or "so how much does it cost for you to follow me" and I don't want to continue... -_-"
15. Weirdest People You've Ever Met?
Amber: Um my boyfriend.
Christine: Conrade.
Angel: My teammates Tank and Jeremy.
Conrade: at least someone doesn't find me we...
Angel: And Conrade.
Conrade: Aaaaaawwwww.... TT-TT
16. Anything you would like too say before this ends?
Amber: Um... This was stupid and useless. >_> I am going to go read.
Angel: Nerd...
Amber: HEY!!!
Christine: *sigh* I wish these two would stop fighting. -_-"
Angel: Yeah. I'M WATCHING YOU ALL!!! O_O And dudes... Get a life man... >_>"
PS I just got my iPod taken away for NO REASON MY GOD I'M ANGRY!!! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT CONRADE!!! 
Conrade: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................... *ding*
Anyway I just really want to say thank you to a really awesome person that I know here on DA. :iconcuteblushpz: And also since I have some time on my hands I decided to do this! I got this idea from 1. Hi! What Is You'r Name?
Amber: Amber at your survice.
Christine: What's my name? Name's Christine... Christine Jem Junioroupolis.
Angel: Well... My name's Angelina Demonio.
But just call me Angel and go easy on me with the questions please I've never done this before. 2. You'r Age?
Amber: I am 24 but I have the appearance of a 15 year old. ^^
Christine: Same as my sis I look 15 but I'm actually 24.
Angel: Well I'll be honest I'm only 23. >_>
3. Fav Color?
Amber: Magenta or yellow really. ^^
Christine: Um I don't know.
Love red but also blue like a emerald blue thing. Angel: I love the color blood red.
Not because I'm a demon and stuff but yeah I just love it. 4. Favorite Food And Drink?
Amber: I prefer light things really like a salad or a sandwich. ^^ As drink I really like tea or lemonade.
Christine: I'm not picky when it comes to food!
I can eat anything really. But when it comes to drinks... I love smoothies. O_O MY SMOOTHIE!!!! Angel: Um... I prefer things like you now a steak or something I'm a meat lover what can I say.
But I really like cherries... And I drink blood sometimes got that from my mom. >.>" But other then that I love drinking punch or like a cappuccino in the morning. 5. Who Is You'r Crush?
Amber: I will always belong to Conrade my lovable idiotic lover!
Even if some people tease me saying I like Atrios! Angel: Only cause it's true.
Well I've always been in love with a man named Damian. Love you hun! Christine: No shit Sherlock I do!
But I won't say the name... He already knows who he is don't ya darlin'? 6. If You Had One, Did You Kiss Yet?
Amber: Yes I have. And I honestly will NEVER regret it it was magical.
Christine: Well let me think um... YES I HAVE!
Angel: Actually I can say yes... Yes I have!
It feels good to say that really. 7. You'r Hobbies?
Amber: Um... Reading and practicing my spells of course.
Angel: Bookworm.
Amber: HEY!!!
Angel: What it's true surprised you don't have a blister in your brain.
Amber: DO NOT PUSH YOUR LUCK YOU S....!!!
Christine: Whoa there you two!!! Anyway my hobby is playing on my guitar, training, walking around... Stuff like that.
Or beat up some enemies and get into fights. Angel: My hobby is sight seeing, training, killing demons... stuff like that. ^^
8. Who Are You'r Friends?
Amber: Um not many I guess.
Never really make to many friends. Christine: Well I make friends. I have a few actually.
Angel: My squad, Conrade... People that I know and trust.
9. Fav Weather?
Amber: Um... I like cloudy sunny mixed days.
Christine: Rainy, snowy, and sunny days.
Angel: I'd guess during a sunny day or a heat wave. It's hot then I like that. ^^
10. What Season Do You Prefer?
Amber: Spring and fall.
Christine: Winter and fall.
Angel: Summer.
11. You'r Biggest Fears?
Amber: I have no fear I was raised to have no fear... And no heart... Learnt to have a heart later on.
Christine: Pffff!!!! Fear is what cause I have none.
Angel: I fear one thing.... But I won't say it...
12. Any People You Don't Like?
Amber: I hate many people but the one person I despise is Giovanni...
Christine: Um... Listen I have to much of a big list so just skip me. -_-
Angel: My ruler and many more....
13. Do You Like Cute Things/People?
Amber: I love animals and creatures they are so adorable.
But the one thing that was the most cute thing I ever saw was my... No... I will not speak about it. Christine: I think animals are cute.
Especially pups. But the cutest thing to my eyes is my daughter. Angel: Um... I think Cerberus are cute. ^^ You know that big hound with three heads? Yeah that.
14. A Compliment You Get To Hear Often?
Amber: Um... Well people usually say "you must be an angel" or "you have beautiful bright eyes and things like that.
Christine: Well I get compliments like "you're the greatest" or "you're a gorgeous hero" or "I wish I were like you." Yup. Things people say to any hero really.
Angel: I get compliments that make me want to slap guys... Like "how's about you come over to my place after we get a few drinks" or "hey sweet thing I couldn't help but notice how strong you are I guess that means you don't get tired to easily." or "so how much does it cost for you to follow me" and I don't want to continue... -_-"
15. Weirdest People You've Ever Met?
Amber: Um my boyfriend.
Christine: Conrade.
Angel: My teammates Tank and Jeremy.
Conrade: at least someone doesn't find me we...
Angel: And Conrade.
Conrade: Aaaaaawwwww.... TT-TT
16. Anything you would like too say before this ends?
Amber: Um... This was stupid and useless. >_> I am going to go read.
Angel: Nerd...
Amber: HEY!!!
Christine: *sigh* I wish these two would stop fighting. -_-"
Angel: Yeah. I'M WATCHING YOU ALL!!! O_O And dudes... Get a life man... >_>"
PS I just got my iPod taken away for NO REASON MY GOD I'M ANGRY!!!
IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT CONRADE!!! Conrade: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................... *ding*
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